Some decisions in life are easy.
What's for breakfast?
Bacon, Eggs, Hashbrown and Orange Juice.
What am I going to wear today?
Red Striped Shirt, Jeans, TOMS.
Some decisions in life are hard.
What am I going to do with my life?
Um, uh... I don't know.
Who am I going to be?
Uh... a woman. I know that for sure.
But they all have to be made.
I'm infamous for being indecisive.
With the easy decisions, it's not really a big deal. At a restaurant, when I order my food, I always hesitate. I usually have a couple of items in mind, and then I just go with the flow and decide on the spot.
With the hard decisions, it's kind of really a big deal. It's not a restaurant. It's life. It's not food, it's the future. There aren't just a couple of options... there are million. In life, you can't just "go with the flow" and expect it to work out.
You have to plan. To know what you want. To go after it.
I think I know what I want. It's like at the restaurant... I have narrowed it down to a couple of options, and now, I just have to pick one. Except this time, I don't get to decide on the spot... I have to decide ahead of time, which is my problem.
If I decide ahead of time, there's still time to change my mind. To overthink things and get scared.
Which I know is completely natural and normal... But knowing it's normal doesn't silence the fear.
...and I have no idea how to handle it.
With the hard decisions, it's kind of really a big deal. It's not a restaurant. It's life. It's not food, it's the future. There aren't just a couple of options... there are million. In life, you can't just "go with the flow" and expect it to work out.
You have to plan. To know what you want. To go after it.
I'm trying to do that.
I made my decision... But now I don't know where to start. That fear has crept up, and my mind has swayed. I've over thought it.
I think I know what I want. It's like at the restaurant... I have narrowed it down to a couple of options, and now, I just have to pick one. Except this time, I don't get to decide on the spot... I have to decide ahead of time, which is my problem.
If I decide ahead of time, there's still time to change my mind. To overthink things and get scared.
Which I know is completely natural and normal... But knowing it's normal doesn't silence the fear.
Who will I call when I need help?
What will I do about a job?
When will I start school?
Where will I live?
Why am I really doing this?
How will I afford tuition?
The classics. Who, What, When, Where, Why, How.
These questions are real. They deserve to be answered. My mind deserves to know.
But I have no answers.
This isn't pocket change here... This is real change.
