I don't know why I'm writing this post... I just am.

I don't have anything really to talk about... So I'll ramble.

I'm nine days shy of eighteen, and I feel so old yet so young at the same time. I've never acted or looked my age, just today someone thought I was in diapers in 1988. 'fraid not. Six years later maybe!

I'm currently experiencing my first of what I'm sure will be many financial stresses, I'm afraid I've overspent, and now have to wait the remaining ten days to payday. I have to remind myself that I need to pay myself first (savings).

I'm about to sign up for my own medical insurance, and for some reason, that scares me. It's kind of a final realization that I'm not a kid anymore. I've got to take care of myself. To me, that's soooooo scary!

I'm excited for life. Honestly. I know it's just beginning. It's just these first few steps are kind of terrifying!

I've signed up for college. I'm taking math, English, Spanish, art, and a computer class. I need to transfer my credits from USU, (thank you EdNet!) and I have to academically perform well in order to keep my scholarships. No pressure!

I guess I'm writing this post because I needed a brain dump. So here it is.

Thinking... And wishing... And hoping... And praying...

First off, name the movie that opens with the song I used for the post title... And you'll be my new best friend!

Anywhoo, here are the thoughts I have in my head as of late. I know y'all are dying to hear them!

1. College.  I'm soooooooo excited I could die. Seriously. I registered for classes, and I'm taking a spanish class! Wooo! Can't wait to be bilingual. (I know it will take much more than just one class, but still! I'm excited.)

2.  Car. I'm starting to itch for a car of my own. And recently, my heart has fallen in love with the Chrysler PT Cruiser. <3 Love. Especially the purple one. I'm saving my pennies. ;)

3.  Children. I went through a phase for a while, where ai absolutely positively did NOT want children. My mind has changed. I know they're a long way off, but there are some names I just can't get out of my head.  They are as follows: Clara, Cohen, Lincoln, and Liberty. :) Cute, right?

So.... This has what has been on my mind lately. College, car, kids. Don't worry, I'll do things the "right" way. Hubby first. :)

You Only Live Once.

Ever since graduation, I've felt so... different than I used to. Older, more mature, somehow suddenly more sophisticated and grown up.

I think part of this stems from working full time, starting to pay some of my own bills, and making more of my own decisions. I like it, but it still seems so foreign to me. (Yes, I know I have the next 65 or so years to get used to this) I think I'm at a beautiful stage of life right now. Young, but not too young. Naive, but not clueless.

Have you ever stopped and thought to yourself, "I'm going to remember this moment for the rest of my life"? I experienced that tonight. Not because anything spectacular or fascinating happened, but simply because I was completely and utterly happy, right at that moment. Life is so beautiful, if you can take the time to stop and enjoy it.

Yesterday I went up on campus (WSU) to take my accuplacer for math, (I placed in 1010! Yay!) and I got so excited for college. I'm so excited for this upcoming stage of my life. Excited. Me. For COLLEGE. I've finally reached the point where I'm not terrified for life anymore. I'm excited. Sooooo excited.

Here I am, eighteen days away from my eighteenth birthday, and I'm completely happy with life.

Live it, and love it, because you only get to experience life once. Just don't be stupid. #yolo

I oughta blog more often...

I should. But I don't. Oh well. What can I say? I'm a working girl now! I don't have time to blog! But I'm here now. So let's make the most of it!

I graduated! No real surprise, but an achievement nonetheless. It was great, but I will miss my friends! I already do. But I know college is going to be great, and I'm going to love it! New people to meet and new adventures to be had for me!

I also am the recipient of the National Multiple Sclerosis Society Scholarship for the amount of $2,000. That, combined with my pell grants and academic scholarship will more than pay for my first year of college! I'm excited.

I've also set the goal for myself to buy a car come February. I should have enough saved up by then for a while decent down payment on a (new to me) pre-owned vehicle. :) aww.... Look at me. All grown up and talking about college and cars. When did this happen? ;)

Countdown is on to my birthday! You tell me... How many days left?